If obesity is your problem then it is not the biggest problem you have. The biggest problem that you have is you are not ready to believe that you can become as slim as a normal person. Every time you start eating, you make yourself an excuse to go on eating. And the excuse is “oh! Come on, there is no way I can be normal again, so why give up the delicious turkey?” well, you have to deal with this problem at first and then think about your obesity.
Obesity can be a lethal disease and if not then at appoint in time, you will feel like a dead person or worse than that. So, you have to confess to yourself that you are making up excuses to eat more and you have to listen to what I say and you will have to give yourself a last chance of rehabilitation.
The first thing you need to do is accept the facts that you crave foods. Admit that you make mistakes with your food habit. Point out what are the mistakes and why do you commit those mistakes. Put an end to all your excuses and prepare yourself to control your diet.

Be self motivated. Do not wait for somebody to push you. It is your problem and no one is going to solve it but you.

Stand in front of the mirror and see the person in front of you. This is what you are. But this is not who you want to be. Imagine an image of yours that you want to be and work hard towards that image.

Concentrate hard and be focused. Do not let anyone or anything come between you and your goal. Hope you will explore the fit yourself within a short time. Good luck.